Sitting in The Coffee Bar yesterday, staring off ahead of me, my eyes shifted into focus and there right in front of me was an answer.
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I have a chance to choose my own adventure. To really take the time to plot my course. I don’t have forever…the money will run out eventually. But in the meantime, for now, I get to choose. There is nothing holding me back.
First step, figure out what I want out of this life?
- To be passionate about the things that I do
- To create meaningful moments
- To be a forever student – always learning and growing
- To simple and honestly love this universe we get to be a part of
What adventure will you choose?
There is a calmness to order–to a structured, consistent existence. Most of my life has been lived by this mantra, in clear and deliberate chapters. The time before school, the time during school, university, post-graduate degree. And then, all of a sudden. There is no clear path. There is no directive that will steer you where you need to go. Because you don’t actually NEED to go anywhere. Woah. That’s a different way of approaching things. It’s a little liberating, A LOT terrifying.
So what’s next? Who can really say. But I do think it’s going to be quite spectacular because, now, there are no expectations or obligations. And that is WONDERFUL.
shhhhhhwwwwt. The sound of a semi-stuck mat that has been rolled up for far too long.
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Today, for the first time in months, I practiced Asana–led by the lovely Monica Alvano. A little slow, a little unsteady, but very much needed. I took a few movements about a week ago–easing into my joints, but this was the first extended practice. It was not life changing, but it was necessary. Sometimes, health and wellness get pushed to the background. And for the last few months, I’ve mostly been treading water–which means a regular health routine has been virtually nonexistent.
A big part of my yoga practice is to not be so hard on myself. I think we could all use a little bit of that. For me, a moving practice didn’t feel right. It didn’t feel like it was going to serve me in the way that it should. That doesn’t always mean you shouldn’t go to class of course. But also, don’t feel like you’re failing if you don’t go. You’ll always come back to it.
That’s the wonder of this practice, no matter what, the mat will always be there.
Francy & Neely
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Is there anything better than kittens? I think, not. Everything is interesting, everything is new, everything just IS. We could probably learn a thing or two from kittens. For the next two days, I get to play mamma to my dear little niece & nephmeow. They are quick as a whip and (Francy at least) is sharp as a tack. [Cor]Neely[ous] is a bit more confused by this world that he’s found himself in–but aren’t we all, really? They are a gentle reminder to keep life light and not sweat the small stuff.
It’s still the weekend so transitions have yet to fully set in. Tuesday, will be weird. Wednesday, even stranger. But “take it one day at a time” is what everyone keeps telling me. I’m fine right now. The world is full of possibilities–and a little bit of rest. Which, I won’t lie, I’m sort of very much excited about. I can literally do anything! What will I choose? For now, to roll around a play with kittens. Yea, that sounds just right.
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It seems like everywhere I turn I see endings. Maybe it’s the season, maybe it’s circumstance. The world is transitioning faster than I’m comfortable with. Summer is my season: it’s warm and predictable. You know the sun will be out and the day will be bright. But Fall, man–Fall is unpredictable. One day cool air with sun, the next day the rain comes and the clouds turn everything grey. Fall is kicking my ass and it’s only just begun.
Things are changing, shifting, spiraling. The world has become an uncertain place and the next few weeks will be dedicated to figuring out how to make that transition as smooth as it can possibly be. I’m not sure where I will land. I’m not sure how I will land. But I will land. I will rediscover my passion for what I do, who I am, and what I can give to the world. Each day I will discover #OneThingofWonder. Something that will bring me one step closer to the reclaiming the magic I seem to have lost. Today that #OneThingofWonder are these roses: worn and faded, their life-cycle near completion. Yet, they are beautiful–perhaps more beautiful than when fully bloomed. There is a grace to the end of things. And when these roses are ready to move on, what will take their place will be something WONDERFUL.